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Wednesday, February 17th, 2010

Time:4:18 pm.
i've become content with this life that i lead
where i drink too much


and i definitely dont believe in much of anything
1 stubborn tiny light| vs. clustering darkness forever, ok?

Wednesday, February 10th, 2010

Time:1:39 am.
movement could not come too quickly to those left going through the motions
absence could not leave one so bare for those that departed so long ago
vs. clustering darkness forever, ok?

Sunday, January 24th, 2010

Time:12:22 pm.
and if i hadn't ignored the fact that you were broken-hearted
who knows where your heart would be
maybe with me
vs. clustering darkness forever, ok?

Thursday, January 21st, 2010

Subject:fml
Time:2:51 pm.
If you'd give me another chance,
If you'd forget the pain I caused before

No use in saying how I'm sorry
So I'm trying not to speak
I'll sing in silence as I lay beside you
With my face pressed on your cheek

My stomach swears there's comfort there
In the warmth of the blankets on your bed
My stomach's always been a liar,
I'll believe it's lies again.
vs. clustering darkness forever, ok?

Tuesday, June 23rd, 2009

Time:1:33 am.
i spend 24 hours a day in this 12 hour town
everyone goes to sleep when the sun goes down

there's nothing to do but drink coffee
and plan our escape
there's nothing to do but build coffins
this cannot be our fate
vs. clustering darkness forever, ok?

Friday, May 29th, 2009

Time:2:26 am.
i seem to only post on here when i hate life

don't let the extreme gap throw you off, i'm usually miscontented


when did i lose the ability to control my emotions?
i stopped talking to most people to avoid having to deal with any of it
now i cant deal with anything
my quick infatuations become overwhelming
my longing for love becomes overwhelming
my reclusive habits become overwhelming
my apathy becomes overwhelming

life overwhelms and over-takes me
i have no choice but to be over-taken by life with each breath
i have no choice but to let myself down with each conversation


the big picture weighs the world and its setting down on me


can i give up giving up and try for love again?
vs. clustering darkness forever, ok?

Wednesday, April 16th, 2008

Time:11:27 am.
You can tell me anything you want to,
but I'm leaving in the morning
and that's the only thing that's true
vs. clustering darkness forever, ok?

Tuesday, February 5th, 2008

Subject:most days and most nights
Time:4:49 pm.
oh i could die now and no one would even have to know.
'cause ive been lying down for years, so what am i waiting for?


oh it's sad, i see other men who i want to be.

sympathy, honesty
god knows i'm trying.
sympathy, honesty
god knows i'm trying.
sympathy, honesty
god knows i'm trying.
sympathy, honesty
god knows i'm trying.
sympathy, honesty
god knows i'm trying.
sympathy, honesty
god knows i'm trying.
sympathy, honesty
god knows i'm trying.
sympathy, honesty
god knows i'm trying.
sympathy, honesty
god knows i'm trying.
sympathy, honesty
god knows i'm trying.
sympathy, honesty
god knows i'm trying.
sympathy, honesty
god knows i'm trying.
sympathy, honesty
god knows i'm trying.
vs. clustering darkness forever, ok?

Monday, January 21st, 2008

Time:10:00 pm.
Mood: drained.
Merciful God, please take me away.
I will close my ears and my heart, and I will be a stone.
Please, God, make me a stone.






i'm never going to feel OK
vs. clustering darkness forever, ok?

Monday, December 3rd, 2007

Time:9:33 pm.
I can't begin to compete with you.
everyone knows,
I know you know it, too.

It's a complicated fear
that grows with every year
and it's walking on it's own, finally


i just want to be someone you know.
all this nothing
2 stubborn tiny lights| vs. clustering darkness forever, ok?

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